Wednesday, 14 January 2015

New Year & New Beginnings | Life

I have always hated the saying 'new year, new me'. We all know it's the same you, but with a list as long as your arm about saving better, losing weight, stop buying so many shoes, bitch less, etc, etc. Having said that, every year I have made a list on my phone comprising of all these things, I mean, I've told myself I'll learn Italian the past 3 years and I've still got no further than 'hello' and 'thank you very much'. I hate when it gets to the end of the year and you've drunk your body weight in wine continuously throughout the year, you've put on that stone you said you'd lose, you're knee deep into your overdraft  and you're still surrounded by the negative people you said you'd get away from. Failure is not often something I feel like celebrating on new years eve.

This year is different though, 2 weeks into the new year and I have finally sat down and thought about what my resolutions would be. And I decided on nothing, why should I feel the need to change who I am, my shoe-buying obsession is part of me, if I stopped buying shoes it'd probably give all my friends a heart attack. I am a extremely messy person, but that is just me! It's almost so sad that we all make resolutions to turn ourselves into these skinny, gorgeous, organised, make up gurus who are all peaceful, never drink too much and love everyone. There is not one way of living, there is not one definition of happiness, the whole point of life is finding your own definition of happiness, what gives you that tummy-twisting feeling of ecstasy will not be the same for everyone.

So this year, I'd still love to learn Italian, drop a dress size and steer well clear of exes, but they're not my resolutions for this year, they're now just my targets (...for the past 3 years) instead I've made the decision to make one significant change in my life. I don't want to live my life on shallow foundations, I don't want to take anyone for face value, looks are so deceiving and people are incredibly complicated. My biggest problem has been accepting the flaws in everyone, including myself, I never understood when people said how flaws make people beautiful, flaws are ugly and frustrating, but they're also inevitable and this is something I'm aiming to appreciate this year. I know that this is going to be a difficult process to put myself through, especially when I'm looking at myself and where I fell short, after all, they say you are your own worst critic. So, I suppose all in all, my resolution is to embrace people, their annoying habits and untidy hair, the viewpoints I don't believe in and the overall unreliability and selfishness of the human race, accept it and run with it. Listen to what people say rather than letting their appearance do the talking. Less of a resolution, more of a new way of thinking.

Let me know what you guys think of it all, have you made the classic resolutions this year, or like me are you trying something a little different?

-ams xo

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